Fear and wealth.

Fear knocked at the door and love answered - there was nobody there.

Last night I went to a rather nice new bar with a friend of mine. During our conversation we talked about my blog which raised the subject of fear. During the conversation she recited the above line, which I found quite lovely. Anyway during the evening one of the most well to do men in the area grew increasingly drunk and caused a scene. He started a fight and began screaming at numerous people. Since he was so wealthy they did not throw him out...

Well I observed the scene with fascination, this man had built a massive empire, albeit not with complete integrity and there he was completely wasted screaming at everyone... It seemed that money certainly did not buy class. In his case, though his behaviour, he revealed loneliness and feelings of not being good enough. He desired attention and having a drunken toddler tantrum was his way of achieving it.

On the journey home something bothered me about this man. The fact, that according to our society, this man was considered a success. Yet (again this is only my opinion)his behaviour revealed he had nothing. His aggressive actions revealed his fear of loneliness and his wealth was amassed to make him feel worth something. All of it was outer display of what the interior was lacking. Please note - this is my opinion of the situation - I may well be wrong. What's more, back to this golden carrot - on some level we all fear poverty - but also do we fear wealth? Why is it, according to society, the wealthy are to be looked upon as something to aspire to. Shouldn't our aspiration simply be to experience joy every day, have perfect health and spend time with great friends? That to me is wealth. What's more, from the wealthy people I have met, it seems they have made massive sacrifices to achieve material wealth - most have sacrificed health and relationships. Is it really worth it when you can not take it with you?

So back to this fear of wealth - I don't simply mean the external manifestation, I also refer to the re-connection to who we are - our true essence. Why is it we fear being who we truly are? Why do we have to conceal ourselves through facades, roles and masks? Through being who we truly are and acting in the highest interest surely any abundance we generate is worth more. It has come from an authentic source - one which enables us joy and the opportunity to share. Rather than simply making an action because it will result in money, instead make an action that makes money but also benefits others... So where I am going with this is? In my previous experience I noticed that a fear of lack generated an action to attain wealth in material form. For instance - I had no money so would take on a job I hated simply to earn money. I exchanged my life hours for a measley value of a construct (money). I valued my life hours according to a wage.

Back to the original line - fear knocked at the door, love answered - there was no-one there. I personally feel that through focusing on love in terms of loving what you do and using your skills to share a service with others. When that service is full of love and results in receiving an income - surely that is worth more than simply chasing a golden carrot... So when I ask if there is a fear of wealth - maybe the fear is going against the grain, accepting who you truly are, stepping out from being a robot and providing a service imbued with a positive feeling. I know what I am going to do from now on...