A series of events...

When you have split up with the man who you believe to be your soul mate it is pretty difficult to move on. There is the fear that there will never be that same intense feeling ever again. It is the fear of the unknown and the fear of letting go. All of it is quite intense to deal with.

So still wondering what on earth was going on with him (please note he went through a tough time and completely withdrew into himself and our relationship was suspended) I went down to my local cafe. There in the newspapaper was an article detailing exactly what he was going through. That afternoon I met a friend to go to the Cinema, she picked the film and there it was again... What he was going through. I had not understood before - obviously a divorce in a person's life is significant but I have never experienced it so never understood it. So with that in mind attempted to contact him. Nothing. Was it possible that the strange coincidences ment nothing...

Resolution is a strange thing. To move from one relationship to another the first has to be resolved and finished. For me the difficulty in letting go is the fact that there may be hope of getting back together especially when there has been no completion. Well strangely enough resolution arrived this morning after two months of waiting. The tough time was over for him and during that time he had only thought of himself and not me. He had accepted it was time to move on. Strangely in my subconscious so had I. So the end was complete and it was time to move forwards. The sense of relief was strange. I expected more of an emotional response - but all I could feel was my shoulders drop and know that I could once again experience the new. So this little blog is a kind of good bye to my soul mate and the fact you enabled me to face me and my issues. You have no idea how that feels.